designer . dreamer . aviator

ajar aku selayak khalifahMu

2009-11-18T02:47:00.001+08:00

I
berterusan aku mau tidur itu dilanjutkan lagi,
hatta seumur gua Hiraq pun aku mulai sanggup,
menemani suria, sang gagah itu pun tahu merendah diri,
membiar aku lalai kerana tak punya musim mengingatkan,
tak punya tasik yang perlu dicairkan,
macam kota kota kuno Eropah itu pun peduli jika nanti benakku teriak...

II
"cinta itu terlalu mewah buatku yang tak mampu!", benar aku rasa ditipu. masih sendirian meratap di Hiraq.

Ya Tuhan,
mengapa diberi rasa agung ini untuk marhain di bumi.
tatkala cemburu hati terkena libas sayap bidadari,
lekas ketawa Azazel iringi kebodohan kami,
jelas tak setimpal dengan anugerah terhebat pernah dicipta.

III
bersendirian melihat malam jatuh satu persatu,
....,
....,
....,
sengaja,
....,
....,
....,

belum puas tadi bersembang.

serangga sama bintang

2009-11-09T10:15:00.000+08:00

kamu jangan nangis.., serangga kecil!.

berpisah itu bagiannya cinta, nescaya bintang pun bakal melewatinya.

Jangan Lupa Rupanya Aku

2009-11-08T10:43:00.002+08:00

Aku diberi sayap, rupanya bukan untuk terbang.
(agar kuingat jalan pulang)

DiberiNya aku ujian, tak pula untuk dinilaikan.
(agar pelajaranku bisa berulang)

Aku diberi uang, rupanya bukan untuk seorang.
(agar dada dan akalku tak kosong)

DiberiNya aku tujuan, tak pula ditunjuk jalan.
(agar kubuka buku agung gedungnya alam)

Aku diberi cinta, rupanya bukan untuk bersama.
(agar kutahu jangan mendewa)

DiberiNya aku rahsia, tak pula suruh disoalkan.
(agar kudakap buat yang kemudian)

Aku diberi bakat, rupanya bukan untuk senyap.
(agar kubelas pada yang mentertawa)

DiberiNya aku senjata, tak pula diajar bersilat.
(agar kusedar bukannya di sini gelanggang)

Aku diberi rupa, rupanya bukan untuk kemahuan.
(agar kusedar kecetekan akal)

Aku diberiNya,
rupa-rupanya agar aku tak lupa rupanya.

aku pe..

2009-10-10T03:37:00.000+08:00

Kata, lahkan..aku

penangkap awan, pembahagi gelombang

pengisah silam, penjerat ilham

pengutip lara, pengendong mimpi

pewaris dendam, pengejar suria

penyamun usia, perindu syurga

pekebun cinta, pemangku senja

peraih rindu, pengintai seni

ya, aku boleh saja.

W. H. Auden: stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone *interpretation by mnh

2009-10-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

hentikan lah waktu, matikan saja talian itu
pujuk anjing itu, nah,tulang enak ni..jangan biar dia terus menyalak
senyapkan piano perlahankan genderang
keluarkan keranda, biar peratap kesedihan tahu dan datang

biar pesawat berlegar sedih di udara
menulis di langit `dia telah tiada'
pakaikan sutera di leher putih merpati semua
penjaga simpang, sarungkan dia dengan kapas hitam tangannya

dialah utaraku, selatanku, timurku jua baratnya
minggu-minggu kerjaku dan ahad rehatku
purnamaku, tengah malamku, bicaraku, lagu nyanyianku
ku kira cinta akan kekal selama : aku yang salah

bintang semua pun tak mahu lagi: padamkanlah satu persatu
balutlah si purnama rungkaikanlah sang suria
tuangkan segala lautan samudera dan sapu saja belantara
kerana sekarang tiada apa-apa yang mungkin bisa jadi sempurna

private sms

2009-10-06T12:35:00.000+08:00

9:47 Morning sunshine

9:50 Say it isn't so

9:53 garreth gates :-P

9:59 :-P

9:49 If u say so. I'll be ur noon, dusk and dawn, as long as i trail u along.

9:52 To which one, my moon my star o' my sun?

9:58 I dun hv any Garreth manning my gates, i left it open last i check, Garreth might return so are Kerry and Kate, what do i do? I offer'em kuih bangkit! :-* gud 2 c u

somewhere at just before your heart

2009-10-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

~ASK

~JUST

So no dark can reach your heart

~ASK

~LISTEN

So the truth can teach your heart

~ASK

~SLEEP

So the love can stitch your heart

aku manis katanya

2009-10-05T05:08:00.000+08:00

dari mula hadirnya senja
aku dah agak dan biasa rasa
menanti bintang menari memikat cahaya
disergah kadang limpahan purnama
pun aku duduk di situ sahaja
jasad di udara jiwa degil tak mendengar kata
12
1
2
3
4
5
...sampai cerah aku tunggu meneman langit malam itu

anak raja, hamba sahaja

2009-10-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

aku putera pencinta cinta

(lihatlah aku lagak)

tak ku takut badai seribu laut setinggi kejora

(dengarkan sorak membelah)

aku mati bila cuma cinta mati

(titipkan basah kucupan dan sayu doa)

hari jadi saya

2009-10-04T17:53:00.000+08:00

selamatkah hari-hari untuk menjadi saya?
lucu soalannya.

saya terlalu banyak bertanya,
pada masa silam ingin sekali saya dengar dia bersuara,
kerana mahu tahu mungkin saya bisa merubah peristiwa cinta mereka.

saban tahun saya diajak berpesta,
tanggal ampat oktober selalunya tinggalkan saya bersendirian,
rasa bersalah kerana bukan saya yang patut diucap tahniah dan diberi hadiah.

terbayang gadis mulus tak sampai setahun dua mengenal remaja,
takut dan sakit, gementar seluruh badannya, lesu untuk bersuara, kali pertama ke medan jihad dia, entah lagi berjumpa atau tenang dalam syahidnya.

dialah yang patutnya saya anjurkan pesta,
melahirkan zuriat, meneruskan syahadat, pemberi cinta, semangat dan kudratnya saya,
selamatnya hari jadi saya kerana dia dan Dia.

biar dia agak dan rasa

2009-09-21T05:19:00.003+08:00

biarkanla..
dia pun tak kacau sesapa,
dia ringsa agaknya...

biarkanla..
dia nak cari singgahsana, walau tanpa permaisuri,
walau bukan dia yang raja, walau dari akar dan dahan berduri,
dia gembira rasanya...

biarkanla..
dia mampu menjadi dirinya kembali,
dia pernah agak dan rasa agaknya.

when i was ten

2008-10-13T12:44:00.003+08:00

cerita teladan

banyak la benda yang terjadi waktu umur tu...tapi yg paling ingat sgt2 sebab itulah tahun kena masuk jawi. ataupun bersunat. nervous tu tak yah cakap la kan, sebab dah tau dari awal tahun yg cuti bulan 12 ni turn aku masuk jawi. mental preparation sudah dibuat sejak awal walaupun tanpa pertolongan dr fadhilah kamsan. and so i thought i will make the best out of the situation. my aim would be to get the latest bmx, my first bike ever...nak bagi budak2 kampung Bukit Tembaga tu jealous. so when the day finally arrive, aku nyer kenduri tu ngalahkan org kahwin, sarung bantal, tilam dan segala benda tuh siap baldu bertekat benang emas, mmg makan hati la budak2 skrg kalau setakat pakai Aussino tu tak yah cakap banyak ok (sambil bagi jelingan maut). so mmg confirm la duit show tunjuk anu nanti lebih dari cukup untuk beli bmx tu. and so i went thru the whole humiliation of org2 tua (laki dan pompuan) yang fetish nak tgk anu budak. (waktu tu takde child porno lagi, i'm the closest thing to it).
i manage to collect RM423. a princely amount for me then...ermm now pun,(esp antara 12hb ke atas). tiap2 hari dok kira duit tu kot2 bertambah, tidur malam pun duit simpan dalam bantal, siang2 sembunyi celah baju dalam almari. hampir sebulan tak keluar rumah, tiap2 hari aku yg kuat berangan ni semakin kuat lah angan2 nya. finally bila dah boleh jalan and pakai seluar aku pun dgn segeralah pujuk abah jom pi kedai basikal, jom pi kedai basikal...4 kali sehari. aku pun tak paham awatlah dia liat sgt nak bawa aku pi kedai tu, bukannya nak pakai duit dia pun? tiba2 di suatu hari yg dia setuju nak bawa aku pi kedai tu, aku dgn la-la tu juga melompat nak pi ambik duit basikal tu. cari punya cari tak jumpa, cari punya cari...pun tak jumpa. dgn paniknya aku minta tolong seisi rumah mencari sama. air mata dah bergenang cuma tak tertumpah ja. then it struck me, abah could have found and keep it for save. so i asked

"abah ambik duit basikal abang ka? abah tolong simpan ka?"

while holding my tears. takut nanti lagi kena marah, dah la tuduh dia pastu teriak pulak. kalau salah kalu tak pasal aku yg kena bambu. non-chalantly he replied, sambil mencabut ubat di depan cermin

"habih tu buat kenduri semua tu tak pakai duit?!!!?"

with eyes open wide. half jerkah half buat bodo.

so kengkawan, teladannya, lain kali kalu takdak duit pamerkan lah anu sendiri ya. jangan guna anu budak2.

Selamat Beramal!

2 minggu sebelum poser

2008-10-13T12:41:00.002+08:00

2 weeks before ramadhan ada orang nak kahwin, ni i punya keroje. seperti biasa bidan ni kena terjun 8 jam sebelum event.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA -from klia with love

2008-10-13T07:19:00.004+08:00

lokasi: masjid india, 1.00am, 1st syawal

CARA-CARA UNTUK MENYAMBUT AIDILFITRI DI KLIA

1. Jangan apply cuti hari raya, leave it to your company to decide for you.
2. 6.00pm-Walau pun di offer untuk balik kampung dengan your auntie satu malam sebelum raya- just decline it, cakap tak selesa naik keta 6 jam.
3. 10.00pm-Keluar lah ke Jalan TAR dan Masjid India untuk shopping raya, boleh beli baju melayu kilat2 sepasang for rm45 from rm150 di celah2 bau ketiak yg makan asam asin kelat.
4. 2.00am-Belek2 baju raya and shok sendiri sambil packing bag ala2 nak balik naik Eastern&Oriental.
5. 3.30am-Jangan tidur, sebab takut tak terbangun pagi nak gi KLIA.
6. 4.45am- dah siap dress up macam pahlawan melayu terakhir kat Bangsar nih..
7. 5.00am-Orang pertama yang naik ERL di pagi raya.
8. 5.28am-Orang yang paling lawa kat seluruh Dengkil, Nilai, Salak Tinggi & Sepang
9. 5.45am-Orang pertama yang check in untuk flight pukul 2 PETANG!!!! waaaaaaaaaa

so kawan2 sekalian, silalah check jadual penerbangan anda dengan teliti yer

kenapalah....

2008-09-18T18:06:00.002+08:00

ada orang yang hatinya busuk sangat,
ada orang yang tak tahu malu,
ada orang yang tak pernah rasa bersalah,
time tengah tak dak duit ni kereta accident pulak.....
banyaknya dugaan bulan posa tahun ni.

sabor jelah..

missing person

2008-08-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

last seen and heard 2 weeks ago. please contact me if there is any info of her whereabout.

sebelum dan selepas

2008-07-30T23:50:00.008+08:00

seri titiwangsa condo..7 months ago.

this is my latest project, it took sometime to complete coz i have to accomodate d client's budget. and by now it's almost 92% completed. my vision for the unit was far grander until i realised how much would it cost if i were to have it my way...hehehehe. nevertheless i try my best to make it work under all of the limitations. every project that i took gave me different challenges and obstacles. along the way improving and testing my patients in dealing with frustrating people. phew..memang menguji kesabaran. but to me, when the final products manage to make my client smile and grinning with pride...that's enough to remind me why i shouldn't stop doing it.

tu la pasal dok sibuk...nanti kita update lagi dgn gambar2 yg elok sikit ek

My Best Friend

2008-07-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

Ini kawan baik saya. Nama dia ialah Faizah Mohd Taib. Saya sangat sayang pada dia. Dia tinggal di rumah yang sangat cantik bernama LIMAPULUHSATU di Sepang. Rumahnya sangat jauh. Saya selalu rindukan dia. Dia berkerja sebagai seorang pramugari yang banyak pangkat. Dia sangat sayang pada kucing. Mukanya pun ada iras-iras kucing jahat. Tapi sangat comel dan pandai menari. Kalau saya penat menari dia akan tolong buka baju saya dan tolong saya naik tangga rumah flat saya. Cita-cita dia ialah untuk menjadi seperti bapanya. Lucu dan berwibawa, prihatin dan manja, jujur dalam segala. Saya rasa dia sudah lama mencapai cita-citanya. Kalau saya jadi kaya saya akan belikan dia sebuah kereta sukan jenama Mercedes 300sl. Saya juga akan buat sebuah rumah yang sangat cantik bernama LIMAPULUHDUA untuk dia.

Pecah kaca pecah gelas,
Sudah baca harap balas.
Pen merah pen biru,
Jangan marah i love you.

nak citer sikit

2008-07-19T13:39:00.002+08:00

haiyo...since dah ada blog rasa macam satu kesalahan la pulak kalau tak updatekan. lupa password sebenarnyer..pastu takde modal pun. tgh rasa macam not produktif sikit. keja belambak2 tapi buat2 macam tak nampak. ada kawan kita sorang tu tgh dok merenung2 and dwelling on being single. kita pun teringat gak waktu2 single. tapi kan..semua pun ada up n down nya. kdg2 seronok single, kdg2 seronok ada org tunggu kita kat umah. what i've learnt so far, we should just make the best of our situation. every phase of our life r different. no regret. enjoy life at its fullest. play to the max. be grateful. jangan aniaya orang. appreciate people around u who make ur day. and spread d love around!!

p/s aiz, meh la buat jahattttttttttttttttt

Lost and Found : Cameron Highland

2008-05-07T10:04:00.003+08:00

They say sometime you have to go away to see if you come back,
they say sometime you have to cry to see if you could still smile,
they say sometime you have to go swimming to see who would save you from drowning,
Cameron Highland...still a magical place after all these years.

love

i punya buah!!

2008-04-15T20:50:00.003+08:00

taufik!! tq so much...
tgh2 takda duit ni tiba2 kengkawan kasik hadiah
or else, sungguh tak logik kalau nak shopping pada 15hb ni...

stunning as it is, there's still a few setback i discovered in my short 22hrs relationship with an iphone.

1. u bound to spend di bawah tahap sedar for an accessories that u think u might need
2. a sudden urge to expand ur music library collection ( tho u already have 700 songs, of which only 5% get an airplay)
3. batt cepat abis coz nanti u akan duduk berangan2 sambil tgn tak diam2 buat benda apa2 ntah yg tak penting..tapi nampak mcm businessman yg juta2 trillion
4. org tak kenal alih2 dtg tanya technical question about apple (aiz...lari!!)
5. cannot send mms ( i antar 12 mms in 16months...so i can live without it la kot..)
6. tiba2 u jadi xtra sensitive n cautious about ur surrounding, takut iphone calar n kotor ( haiyo...very the penat one)
7. type sms pun 3 km/j je, pun sebab takut tercalar

how? nak beli jugak ke?
GILA TAK BELI!

i want this land!!! ...minus this house tho'

2008-04-12T22:34:00.003+08:00

with a view like this!!!
at 5am the mist linger up to your knee till around 8am. the water freeze, i dare not touch the water other than to wash my hand.
at dusk suddenly thousands insect launch into a forest orchestra...and all this just 30mins away from kl.
bukit tinggi, genting highland

hello? remember me?

2008-03-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

so...it has been a year? no it can't be, aiz's apple still look clean. oh, september..

anyway, some thing are better left unsaid hence i've been quiet. too much dreaming i guess. let's see, some of my friends has been in n out of love without me even knew it, hmm...so mr u know who, was it love that u r looking for? let me tell u what i wish i don't know about love.

1. i dunno it make u numb
2. i dunno it make u dumb
3. i dunno it make u high
4. i dunno it can haunt
5. i dunno i dunno

true that people said be careful of what u r wishing for, but u dunno if u never take the risk right?
u no or u dunno u wear odorono

aiz's punya buah

2007-09-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

i'm expecting a more frequent blogs from thebo after this, i'm actually surprise no new blog this morning....aiz, its 11 am now, u can go get some sleep

siem reap III, the temple - pengsan!

2007-08-13T10:50:00.000+08:00

all pic courtesy of azli ayob long
cover album ekamatra, circa 1989
angelina jolie
majestic trees in a magical land
azli and fairuz pose maut on the step of angkor watt
azli and me among the entrance ruin, i really wonder how on earth can the ancient people be so patience and grand
one of the rare structure featuring roman like pillars
fairuz and me - wet while leaving angkor watt, he can strike a pose in almost any impossible situation

siem reap II, tonle sap - define poor

2007-08-09T19:44:00.000+08:00

all pic courtesy of azli ayob long
they work in a pair, the elder row and the child sell. a plate of banana is all they have..selling to non interested tourist, they hand pedal trying to chase our speed boat for a mere 1usd
me and azli on the bow of the boat..panas nak mampus, can barely seat there more than 10 seconds, and these people live here..
their school, some are 17 years old studying to an equivalent level of our standard 6..the highest available for free
tonle sap typical boat house..i feel sad but they seem happy
me n the lake houses
me, azli and yusof (our guide) just arrive on the floating crocodile farm..i dread to think what would happen should the wooden cage break

siem reap siem reap

2007-08-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

how bless is this land,
thousands years old ruin among thousands fragile butterflies,
set in the quietness of jungle maddening silence,
how ironic blood were splattered not long ago,
among such gentle people,
how grateful i am,
to fall in love in such land,
cambodia..here i am

My first Tanahkayu

2007-07-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

komen sikit..

NEW BLOG FOR KEBUN MIMPI!

2007-06-26T08:39:00.000+08:00

http://kebunmimpigallery.blogspot.com

that's right! a new blog has been set up by me just for the gallery's happening. it'll be easier to differentiate between my stuff and gallery stuff. and best of all, the art enthusiast can leave their comment and we can exchange ideas and such. and perhaps even conduct online bidding for the art works! hmmm...bidding start now for the pic above [name your price]

cuba citer sikit..

2007-06-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

kengkawan...sila tulis karangan berpandukan gambar diatas dengan tidak melebihi 30 patah perkataan.
masa: 30 minit
sila gunakan pensil 2b sahaja.
tolong senyap.

faces of perhentian

2007-06-07T16:24:00.000+08:00

u guys better go there while it's still has pretty face and cheap. hope it stay forever that way.
i know i'll be back :-)

introducing kebun mimpi

2007-06-07T15:56:00.001+08:00

hi all! it's been a journey just to start again something that i believe in. jatuh sekali, bangun dua kali. jatuh dua kali bangun lah lagi, biar berkali-kali but once you have a dream, stick to it. believe in your dream for it is only yours to make it happen.
this is the entrance of my new gallery, i name it as such reflecting how much i want my dream to materialise, and this is the first space where i plant it, nurture it and hoping to watch it grow. it'll be a monumental journey all over again to established the gallery. but hey, look at the bright side...through all this ups and downs i have all of my best friend's support and love. that is something i really cherish for i know they'll still love me if thing didn't work out, i still have the courage to stand up again because of them. this i hope will be the start of many more good things for the gallery and me.

pokoknya, gwe bahagia kok dengan apa yang udah gwe jalanin slama ini, bahagia walau derita semuanya cubaan mahu mengajar kita.
so God, please remind me again and again to be thankful for all that You've bestowed upon me. Amin

hello again!

2007-05-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

sorry!! terlupa password hence cannot update. been busy seperti alasan2 biasa blogger2 yg lain juga. nanti i dah jumpa kat mana cable camera ni i'll upload more news n what happen for the past 10 years ni...

north point

2007-03-24T19:40:00.000+08:00

presenting my second project...
tu la pasal tak banyak update blog, sibuk nak siapkan ni.
different from my first project ( lima puluh satu-in february and august 2006 archive ) but satisfying the same. looking forward for more :-)

sayang

2007-03-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

kadang-kadang orang yang paling kita sayanglah yang susah untuk kita sayang

sabor ye kengkawan..

2007-03-02T17:52:00.000+08:00

banyak tul nak diceritakan,
banyak keja nak diselesaikan,
banyak hati nak dijagakan,
banyak banyak timakasih wahai sekalian.

buat kamu

2007-01-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

akhirnya ku menemukanmu
saat hati ini mulai merapuh
akhirnya ku menemukanmu
saat raga ini ingin berlabuh

miliki aku dengan segala kelemahanku
sungguh ku berharap engkaulah jawaban segala risau hatiku

bendang pendang terbang datang

2007-01-15T07:55:00.000+08:00

bendang di pendang tu..
jauhnya mata sayup memandang
kembang tersenyum berkongsi
hirup zaman keanakan

bahagia memang, ayuh jom terbang
celahan awan kita bersiul suka
ringannya jiwa
salam si suria lembut menyirami di muka

armanee.
15th january, 8:11:43am

untuk che mie dan ross dan zaza dan

2007-01-14T08:44:00.000+08:00

CHE MIE,
memang sedap kan lagu ni...patutla awak drive sorang2 3 pagi nyanyi kuat2

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

ROSS,
amboi amboi aamboi...(sambil cross jari kelingking)

setiap ada kamu mengapa jantungku
berdetak lebih kencang
seperti genderang mau perang

setiap ada kamu mengapa darahku
mengalir lebih cepat dari hujung kaki ke hujung kepala
setiap ada kamu otakku berfikir
bagaimana caranya untuk berdua bersama kamu

aku sedang ingin bercinta kerana
mungkin ada kamu di sini aku ingin

setiap ada kamu mengapa jantung ini
berdetak lebih kencang
seperti genderang mau perang

setiap ada kamu mengapa darah ini
mengalir lebih kencang dari hujung kaki ke hujung kepala

ZAZA,
best kan libra? ross? cepat angguk kepala

tersenyum melihat gambarmu
di jendela bawah lengkung bulan itu
yang berkata kau jua rindu

aku menanti tiba hari
berdua kita kembali
melihat angkasa
yang berkata kata

ku cinta ku sayang
aku rindu
rupanya kita serupa

bila terkena cahaya
bulan menerangi
ke jiwa diriku
pesanan luahan cinta kamu

ingin ku temui kamu
kembali ke pangkuanku
melihat angkasa
seperti waktu waktu yang lalu

ohh??
dah ku sayang dah ku cinta
dan sudah ku rindu kamu

dimana kita berdua
bersama berasmara
ke akhir nyata
selamanya

lyrics are from DEALOVA by Once, SEDANG INGIN BERCINTA by Dewa, RUPANYA KITA SERUPA by Siti Nurhaliza

macam nak nangis pun ada, 2006 - 2007

2007-01-08T04:17:00.000+08:00

so...good bye 2006,
have i grown wiser? check
have i remember Him? check
have i say enough grace? check
have i mentioned to the people i love of my gratefulness? check

memang banyak kisah suka dan duka dan duka dan duka di tahun 2006 ni, t'was a stressfull year end for me.
and also a stressfull start in 2007 for me as well.
with never ending works and materials constraint...kaki sakit, belakang lenguh, mata macam nak tanggal, bahu lenguh..growing old sucks.

have i never learnt? also check

selamanya

2006-12-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

kuharap mentari pagi tak menyambut,
kuharap sinar rembulan tutup mataku,
selamanya..

sejak kau pergi,
tinggalkan bumi,
tinggal aku disini..

turunkan matahari,
usir bintang-bintang,
putarlah utara ke selatan.

untuk apa lagi semuanya,
ambillah jiwa retak ini,
ku tak ingin lagi.

putuskan hari-hari bumi,
aku ingin pergi,
menuju abadi,
selamanya..

hauntingly performed by,
anggun cipta sasmi

kedaimakan in remembrance feb '06 - dec '06

2006-12-25T09:35:00.000+08:00

out of twisted fate and hopes for a better future, i was born
not a luxury but a necessity, not without a dream..but even dream failed you sometime

counting my blessing,
of knowing my dear friends are really my dear friends
of families and foes
of stress and joy

terima kasih from the bottom of my heart
a million thank you is not even close to pay you
to the people that i love
thank you, thank you and thank you

for those who's been visiting me, thank you for your continuous support
all good things come to an end
but you all are welcome to alor setar should you miss my mother's cooking

love,
kedaimakan...sob,sob

rm56.80

2006-12-23T09:25:00.000+08:00

don't you guys just hate it when you think you are getting your pay tomorrow so you just want to spend the last coins in your pocket and to find out the money is not there as expected? well...this is another monthly routine for me and i'm sure few more millions people who live for their paycheck at the end of the month..and i just hate it.

so...what do i do with my last rm56.80 when i thought i'm getting my pay the next day? (in my case in the next 4 hours)

shopping! (yes, you can...just bring along your self employed friend that doesn't depend on the paycheck)

"never heard before brand" blue jeans = rm100
"cute brand but also never heard before" t-shirt = rm40
F.O.S rubber slipper = rm19.90
dinner = rm16.50

eh!..but you only got rm56.80 meh?
- confidently just ask your self employed friend to pay first because you are getting your pay in about 4 hours what..
7.00pm...excitedly queing in front of atm machine with 10metres of people lining up behind me
7.03pm...baki anda rm13.76
7.03 and 1/100th sec pm...frantically pressing the batal transaksi button

and this is what happened to the remaining rm56.80

spa treatment for me and my friend = rm40 (don't ask)
carwash = rm13
ramly burger for supper = rm2.50
and i still have balance!!

....and the next day arrived
waking up excitedly (just like when i was 9yo on the morning that we're going to kuala lumpur city during school break-to visit countless relatives from penang to perak to perak to perak to perak to gombak to sg penchala...then finally kuala lumpur [to me 22 years ago, kuala lumpur is a shopping mall, any shopping mall is kuala lumpur] )

9.15am maybank2u.com
9.16am baki anda rm13.76

bengonggggg! ( hence the photo that come with this post )

it's that time of the year again!!!

2006-12-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

you all know how i don't really like my job right? but not wanting to sound ungrateful i do love what the job has done to my life so far. only now i began to understand god's plan for me.

but anyhow that dreadful bi annual stupid 'see who can make a proper horserace holding pattern in the air with typhoon durian coming from the east' is here again!!!!
and as usual i won't even be looking for the syllabus till its time to go for the CBT, (computer based training). and the CBT is like..1 day before the actual exam. arghhhh. got to borrow QRH (quick reference handbook...i think) from my friend as soon as i get out from my towel at 'way too late for the actual CBT programme started' 10.30am. hope he has updated his...(the authority have this craving to update its contents every 4 months or so-mine was last updated in 2001)

and once i manage to get through all this commotion, i'll sure vow ( vau, not vo ) to make my preparation 1 month ahead for the next exam. and i've been making this vow for the past 11 years to no avail. really is a wonder how the hell i make it through every 6 months since forever.

and all my close friends know how jittery i can get...they just despair to be in kl during my exam time. prefering to congratulate me at the end of the whole thing and do some lalalala celebration coz i think i deserve it..( for playing roullete see if i can pass without studying routine) .

and this year is no different than 1996,1997,1998,1999,2000,2001,2002,2003,2004,2005,2006,2007,2008,2009...tsk tsk tsk

-humongous SSIIGGGHHHHH.....

ada sebab

2006-11-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

1986, sekolah kebangsaan wan abdul samad, pokok sena, kedah :

satu hari tu cikgu zauwiyah tanyakan kelas, "murid2 besar besok nak jadi apa?"

. hilman jawab kuat2, " nak jadi askar! "
.
basiron tak mau kalah, laju membalas, " saya nak jadi komunis cikgu! "

. " kamu tahu ke apa kerja komunis tu? ", cikgu zauwiyah tanya sambil tahan gelak.

. " abis tu kalau dia jadi askar takde komunis apa dia nak buat? ", basiron confident je jawab sambil mengelap hingus di hujung kolar. ( hingus dia tak pernah kering sejak kita orang dari darjah satu lagi-1982 )

. pastu ada sorang kawan ni jawab perlahan tapi tetap kedengaran..." saya nak jadi penoreh getah, cikgu! "

. satu kelas ketawa, tapi akulah yg gelak paling deraih...bangga sebab tadi aku jawab aku nak jadi geologist, sapa pun tak tau apa kerja geologist tu..termasuk la aku ( jumpa kat ensiklopedia waktu rehat tadi, bunyi macam terror )

. " kenapa kamu nak jadi penoreh getah? ", cikgu zauwiyah tanya lagi.

. sambil teragak-agak dia menjawab, hampir berbisik, " ermm, s, sa, saya kesian kat abah, saya tak mau dia kerja teruk2 nak bagi saya pi sekolah, kalau saya ganti, abah boleh la pi buat kuih kat kedai mak jah sanggui, tak teruk sangat kerja dia" air mata dia dah bergenang, sebab malu kena gelak kan satu kelas tadi.

aku jadi malu alih2, budak yang semua orang ingat lembap tu rupa2nya jauh lebih dewasa dari kami semua. aku dah tak ingat nama dia...tapi aku nak ucap terima kasih. semoga di mana dia berada, hatinya masih bersih macam dulu2, semoga hidup abah dia lebih senang dari yang terbayang.

aku ingat sangat cerita ni sebab sejak hari tu, aku nekad ingin jadi orang yang lebih baik dan berhati mulia macam dia. mohon aku dijauhkan dari hati busuk dan dengki sesama. i left that year feeling humbled, and i'm glad to know what humble is at such young age. mohon juga diri ini di ingat kan selalu.

sarang murai

2006-11-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

thank you affa for the pleasure of having us at your lovely place. too bad we can't spend more time there...make me can't wait for my slice of small jungle kingdom :-)

gemarimba openhouse show 2006

2006-11-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

gadis gadis penyeri majlis..

thank you all for coming, gemarimba annual openhouse show aka art under rm1000 see slightly more participating artists than last year. it's such an effort to last this long and i can't thank you enough to those who'd been there all this while- u guys know who you are. artists and friends, staff and partner, families and foes, thank you all. THANK YOU THANK YOU selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin

ramadhan 2006

2006-11-04T08:22:00.000+08:00

thank you all for d great ramadhan..macam sedih lak, banyak tul dugaan tahun ni. fasting month make me feel safe somehow...dari di aniaya dan di cela. mohon selalulah dilindungi hendaknya...ameen

over!

2006-10-12T12:10:00.000+08:00

over to the max..
macam malas nak buat apa2 dan bergerak2, apsal ah?

budak2

2006-10-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

bestkan jadi budak2..tak yah nak pikir masalah2 yg membengongkan diri ni..
dulu2 i used to think adult created their own problems and after that busy trying to find the solution because they're bored sebab dah tak yah gi sekolah. so i vowed not to leave my inner child, but sometime i forget about this promise i made to myself. i hope i can find him back and apologise for being lost. i do miss myself at that age, where i view the world differently and my opinions are actually my opinion. tapi kalu jadi 10yrs old back...taakut lak sebab tak sunat lagi

my darling li'l brother : naufal

4th 0ctober 2006

2006-10-08T08:45:00.000+08:00

mama, aiz tercekik tulang, ismah tertelan baby

che mie tersengih pose manja

me n naufal

ni lah kek besor from che mie

pai n family ( my partner in crime kat sekolah )

rizal, che mie, razif, k-ma n bib

teh lind, linda ayu, aiz terlebih glucose

malik kokko naufal

me, rasa n roza

badek presenting me d baskin robbin from teh lind

ramai2 jadi bengong

ramai2 jadi blur

ramai2 jadi chantik

penasihat raden putri retna dumilah

ross, komar n faiz tgh control cun

faiz n ross

ermmm..i leave this to your imagination

mwah!!

It was my first birthday in many2 years i remember celebrating it with my family. and it was more special as i had most of my favourite people (yes..i know,i know ..people is without s, thank u aiz) surrounding me...my darling friends. and my mum made nasi ikan kering makan dgn dalcha n pulut makan dgn sambal apa ntah...tapi sedap yg teramat. thank you mama.

thank you aiz, for all the help,basuh pinggan n all,tea towel,torch fuel,n all the candle holders (!),ride to klia, MWAH!!!!
thank you din, for sharing the besday gift tho' u might not know it first hand ;-)
thank you faiz, for the cash,nyusahkan buat my printing,carpets
thank you komar, for the bamboo dragonfly,sate sedap
thank you zul, for the time,baju batik
thank you ross, for coming on time,future cake sponsors
thank you shamsul n linda, for the bubur lambuk
thank you yasmin, for the sketchbook,triffle,basuh pinggan
thank you kak teh n husin, for the yummy2 Baskin Robbin's cake
thank you che mie, for the gigantic Secret Recipe's chocolate cake
thank you rasa n roza, for sharing the birthday cake for your hubby/papa
thank you ismah, for driving late at nite just to be with my birthday dinner
thank you k-ma, for making such an effort
thank you razif, for remembering,oobi
thank you kakak n amrey, for the time n the fuel to come this far
thank you pai n family, for driving this far
thank you badek, for sporting enuf
thank you malik, for all the lifting n cleaning the garbage,watering the plants,sacrifice for kedaimakan
thank you naufal, for the bunga2 besday card
thank you rizal, for stealing ur time to be here
thank you ahmed n yaya, for all the good food
thank you bibik, for helping mama
thank you bib, for ur time n fun,kain sampin baju raya
thank you abah, for the sms
thank you all for the love

and so i turned 31!

the 23rd stone, ulu langat...

2006-09-28T09:19:00.000+08:00

They ask why i make my home in the mountain forest,

And i smile, and am silent, and even my soul remains quiet :

It lives in the other world which no one owns.

The durian trees blossom. The water flows.

sculpture : a group exhibition [ 16th sept ~ 16th oct ]

2006-09-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

SCULPTURE : i have always been fascinated by it, as long as i can remember. when i was 8 or 9, i'll build something from my kampung's lawn. Surrounded by nature, i used the readily available branch, stone, dried leaves and pretty much of whatever there is. I have no idea there's a word to describe the stuff that i build, lost in my own world and imagination...i just enjoy watching the stuff that i build, dramatically at odd with its surrounding. Tho' i know by the next day our herd of goats might ruin it, or the night downpour might wash it away...i just love to find out what happen next, how long will it last, what shape will it be. To see it 'grow'. Thank god, i was pretty much all by myself back then, otherwise my schoolmate would have think that what a freak i am. So..you see, i was a closet sculptor.

Even till today, i'm pretty much still intrigued by a SCULPTURE. An art form that is to me very sexy for being delicate, generous for being touchable, raw for being honest. As you can see, it is very difficult for me to explain my love affair with the art form that SCULPTURE is, that i was in love with despite not knowing its existence. And so, i'm humbly inviting you all to this latest show..hoping that you might understand why is it that i'm so in love with SCULPTURE.(hoping that it catches on)

This group exhibition is a joint effort of 16 artists, my idol (Professor Ramlan Abdullah) also in it...so you see..i can't hardly contain my excitement! joint by his protege and peers, all 16 artists developed their own distinctive style using myriad of objects as their medium. Ranging from light installation, clay, granite, concrete, driftwood, molten steel, deconstruct crystal...it sure is mind boggling. So please, enjoy the ride..

*participating artists are:

ABDUL LATIFF, AHMAD FAUZI, AZAHARI KHALIP, DIANA IBRAHIM, KHAIRUL AZMIR AKA MEME, MOHAMAD HAFIZ, MOHAMAD RADZI, MOHAMAT NAJIB, MOHD FAIRUL RIZAM, MOHD SAFWAN, RAMLAN ABDULLAH, ROZANA MUSA, SAHARUDDIN SUPAR, SHARMIZA ABU HASSAN, UMI BAIZURAH ISMAIL AND YUHANIS IBRAHIM.

please visit www.gemarimba.com for more info

taking time to just be

2006-09-04T08:32:00.000+08:00

nobody sees a flower -

really -

it is so small -

we haven't the time -

and to see

takes time

like to have

a friend

takes time.

georgia o'keeffe (1887-1986)

i was tired from flight and hungry and the house is in a mess, and che mie and gang are coming for dinner! just manage to buy drinks and desert, luckily everythingelse was brought by che mie. we had fun playing psychiatrist over dinner under the half moon and clear sky. thank you also che mie for the beautiful book . thank you mokciknab, alia, papa khalid and ijam for the good company.

thank you

2006-08-29T09:41:00.000+08:00

you don't know who you are, but thank you for making my day!

Huargh haha huargh haha hihi hoo hahaha ( thin albert laugh, he's the evil bro of fat albert )

jika

2006-08-16T10:15:00.000+08:00

jika kau dapat melihat parasMu dari mataku
jika kau dapat mendengar suaraMu dari telingaku
jika kau dapat menyentuh ragaMu lewat jemariku
akan kau tau pasti diriMu telah perindah hariku

jika kau dapat cium aromaMu lewat kucupku
jika kau dapat resapi mimpiMu lewat tidurku
kalau kau Mau mencoba meraMu hidupMu hidupku
akan kau tau pasti diriMu telah perindah hariku

sembilan lapan, tiga puluh lima at lima puluh satu

2006-08-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

THE LIMA PULUH SATU DESIGNER N OWNER

THEIR LOVELY FRIENDS

THE EXHAUSTED OWNER (physically n financially)

remember about LIMA PULUH SATU?
my first full project, well it's 65% complete.

last night the lovely owner FAIZAH + DEAN throw their first dinner party celebrating dean's n their friend-faiz's birthday party. spending two whole days putting the final touches before the arrival of their critical n opinionated friends were truly nerve wrecking to say the least. but it's all worth it, seeing the beaming faces of din n aiz really make me feel happy- to be able to finally hand them over a beautiful dwelling to replace their 80's retro shag in puchong.

to them and their friends...ENJOY!!!!

bintang : by yoesoef olla

2006-08-06T10:42:00.000+08:00

gemarimba latest show from 1st to 31st august.

olla hailed from jakarta, but has been residing in bali since 1999. a humble guy with a humble studio to match in seminyak,bali. i discover him in early 2004, passing through countless galleries in seminyak, his works is like a breath of fresh air. i waited for 2 hours by the dusty roadside waiting for him to open his gallery, excited but nervous as well because i don't have much money left and buying art was never in that trip agenda, and i don't know how much his art going to cost. and i'm pretty sure i will buy his work no matter the cost! we click almost instantly, his price is fair but beyond my budget at that time. seeing how i fall in love with his work he just doesn't have a heart to let me leave without it, such a big heart from a small guy.

to return him a favour, i'm more than glad to bring such big talent to malaysia. i hope he'll have a good time here and may it be a new inspiration for him being in a foreign country for the first time. BINTANG SASTRA DHARMA, itu nama anaknya. hence the show is aptly titled bintang. his muse, his inspiration, his guidance, his heart. his current work reflect his status as a father, a new role he doesn't take lightly. the colours are more subdued but sophisticated, a hint of bright cheerful colors are still there but much has been toned down. he's more serious now, seriously in love that is. for that i celebrate him..

bintang..
kala gelap dia pedoman, kala kelam dia menawan, kala sunyi dialah teman.
- mohd nurul husni

reformatting-second time around

2006-06-17T09:10:00.000+08:00

how one can be unaware beneath such beautiful and colourful images lies the ugly truth of human life...

gemarimba gallery latest groupshow,
7 of next young prominent artists, already a few awards winner, malaysia's next star.
each artist tackling different issue, social issue ranging from global concern right down to inner self concious.
to see how cruel n ugly issues being transfered into beautiful art works u just got to give them a credit, a pat on their back, an applause for all this humble n talented group of people.

the show run till 16th july 2006, cx out www.gemarimba.com for details

a wedding (if ever..)

2006-06-17T09:04:00.000+08:00

sometime somethings are just not meant to be,
be happy with what we have,
be grateful with what we're given,
nothing is forever...cherish it while its here.

destinasi:eterniti

2006-06-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

saat kita bertemu,
saat mawar tertawan,
cetus halilintar,masa seakan terhenti.

berdua kita terbang,
mengejar matahari,
itu destinasi,itu eterniti.

masa hanya gagasan,
kita hanya manusia,
resap keelokanmu,
adalah idamanku.

janji takkan berpisah lagi,
dalam gelap atau terang kehidupan ini,
janji hati tak berubah lagi,
dia yang pasti tetap bermukim dalam kalbu.

bonda segala karya,
sultan segala rasa,
aku tak dapat tidak selain memuja dirimu...

MAJOR SIGHHHHH... jangan mare ah abg m, akak m m

cuba teka

2006-05-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

siapa kah mereka...

doa selamat

2006-05-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

new operating hours*
due to overwhelming response we'd decided to extend our business hours

KEDAIMAKAN is now open 12pm to 10pm daily, closed on FRIDAY

thank you all for gracing the doa selamat at "kedaimakan'.
it has been almost 10 days since we're open.
responds has been great! to all my dear friends, thank you so much for the love and supports, allah je boleh balas.
to aiz: ur help mean d world to me coz i never ask but u did it anyway, tho we don't say it often i think its obvious that people know we're in love. hahaha
to din: tq for sharing her with me ;-p

presenting...KEDAIMAKAN

2006-04-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

proudly brought to you by mohdnurulhusni & associates,

K E D A I M A K A N
k u a l a l u m p u r
a-g-03, perdanaview condo, damansara perdana.

starring*
*siti rohani ibrahim, mahmud haji ali, mohd nasrul haniff,
a malik urip and occasionally faizah mohd taib.
OPERATIONAL 26th APRIL 2006, 1200 to 1800, DAILY EXCEPT MONDAY

kedaimakan

2006-04-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

suzlee ibrahim @ gemarimba

2006-04-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

ampun beribu-ribu ampun, memang dah lama sangat tak update blog ni. sibuk buat benda2 ni ler...
anyway, thank you so much to all my guest that day, the opening night of suzlee's show. my friends as always will always be there...cuma tak tau pukoi berapa saja..tq guys, luv u all.

this is suzlee's latest effort, his latest solo show with a significants as this is the first show that he's foraying into different style of his abstract expressionist. the strokes are bolder with hardly any restrain on the color pallete as he's trying to convey the emotions in each work. the burst of colors and the gesture of his stroke are the exact feelings that the artist try to convey, with work aptly titled such as CEREMONY 1,2,3,4 (d one with me featuring my back..)

i still dunno how to put the caption on each photo, kalau macam tak masuk je tu pandai2 suaikan jelah ye..so here goes...
1. JAGUAR, masterpiece 1997, beauty in chaos..i like
2.SHANIZA, masterpiece 1973, FAIZ, masterpiece 1972, MOI, masterpiece 1975
3.ROSS, masterpiece 1968, MOI, NAZ, masterpiece 1972
4.CEREMONY 1,2,3,4 , recent works
5.me and the master himself. SUZLEE IBRAHIM

BOTERO

2006-04-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

been quite a while huh....will keep u all posted on what's happening very soon. oh and by the way...this is BOTERO ,yes..that BOTERO

di tambak bunga

2006-02-17T09:19:00.000+08:00

karya agung kita ada dalam diri
tergolek kadang terkunci
cuma sesekali petaka menziarahi
kita sedar lemahnya diri

inai merah kelapa tua
semak dedalu pagar berbunga
sunyinya hati cintanya hiba
meminta tiada memberi padanya

tinggallah rumah tua ni
pernah menjadi pernah membenci
jarang sekali dikeluhi
hanya berzikir membilang budi

rupa-rupanya tersentuh juga
bukan mudah
bukan juga payah
cuma leka..
mudah-mudahan bukan selalu dia begitu
dah tertulis, harinya kan tiba

12th december 2004

lima puluh satu

2006-02-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

house number lima puluh satu,
kota warisan, sepang, malaysia.

in various completed stages.

this is my first house that i design with courtesy and courage of a very brave couple,
faizah n din.
they believe in me,
never once being pushy,
they understand how i understand them,
hence the house really reflect them.
truly wish the house will bring tons of good time n future loving memories of their families n friends.
i just hope their children will be very proud to live in it and so he/she can brag at school.....cheers

my funny valentine

2006-02-14T10:06:00.000+08:00

my partners....happy valentine's day my loves

mimpi dia bukannya kita

2006-02-14T09:26:00.000+08:00

kerdip bosan, jelajahi bintang
pergi tak bersambut, pulang lagi bertepuk
...pun kita tunggu jua
kekadang lewat senja, langit pula bersorak
mata tak lagi hiba

indahnya mimpi dia
yang hidupnya kita
menjengah juga kadang kala
...bukannya kita lupa
bukan juga kita alpa
jauh sekali kita terlena

kita menari sekadar irama
(..harap-harap lagunya tak panjang mana)
sebab kita sedar langkah kita...
makin sumbang, makin bongkak sesekala
bukannya apa, kita cuma tak mau
tersembah, terjatuh, terluka

kita tahu,
kita pun bukannya lupa..

35,000' south china sea
1153 utc 20th dec 04

thank you

2006-02-09T14:58:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU

ALLAH-for not forgetting me
mama, abah, kakak, badek, dik na, naufal -for the love n bond we have till we die
faizah -u r my family,my muse,my darling,my buddy,my love
faiz + komar -my strength without u guys realising it,to be who i am,to achieve what i can achieve
din + mumtaz -for sharing your beautiful partners with me
shaniza -for accepting me n sharing your love,its my honour to be ur friend
naz + zul -for always being there,always...
malik -for teaching me what's life is

sorry

2006-02-08T14:39:00.000+08:00

tak kuar lak gambor ni ha...kang kita tanya kengkawan jap camno

gemarimba early days

2006-02-08T08:14:00.000+08:00

gemarimba

2006-02-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

hi all,

this is gemarimba gallery when i first started it 7 months ago. never tot that it'll become real. but dreams never fail. very proud to be here today, looking back how blessed am i with love, thank you my dear friends, u all know who u are.